had my first paper today
okok la~
wasnt very satisfied with it though
think i could do better if i can write faster haha
but anyway its over, so heck~

today's journey to school was torturous
the moment i was on the bus
i started to feel nauseous
but i would sometimes experience this kind of feeling
when i didnt eat or drink anything
so i thought i would get better in a while or so

but things start to get worse when i was on the train
i simply couldnt sit still
keep having the nauseous feeling and had abit of breathing difficulty
i had to grasp slightly for air
on the transfer train to dover
things got even worse

i could feel myself feeling faint
and couldnt really see whats in front of me
i know whats happening; i might get a blackout anytime
i knew it cos i always experience this when i was still in NCC
the kind of feeling u get before u realli blackout
i was really scared at that time
i wouldnt wanna faint on the train and miss my paper
so i kept moving myself as much as i could
to get the blood flowing to my brain
( u had a blackout cos blood circulation is not that good )

finally the train reached dover and how relieved can i get
relieved that i was able to step out staying conscious
upon seeing my friends at the exam venue
i immediately ask for water
and most importantly, sweets
but all thay had were mints, sugar-free mints
good grief, i need SUGAR
luckily, precious esther was there to save my life
she had a chunk of kit kat
woots~ wasnt i happy to see that? haha
took a huge bite and tada~
ready for exam
=)

think might be due to the fact that
i havent been sleeping or eating well lately
1 meal a day
can have up to 12 hours of sleep but often
accompanied by nightmares
kept dreaming of being chased
and running down flights of winding staircase
weird~